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2011-12-14T00:56:00.001-08:00

Sweet Scribbles Boy Birth Announcement

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2011-12-01T22:29:00.001-08:00

Little Snowflake Boy Birth Announcement

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Final Nursery Pics

2011-10-13T17:33:00.000-07:00

Slow down, don't grow up TOO fast, I want to savor EVERY moment...

2011-10-13T17:27:00.000-07:00

before I know it you will be 18 and going off to college. Until then, I will savor every single minute of looking at this adorable face and how much joy it brings to me every single second of every single day :)

He's Here!!!!

2011-09-10T16:36:00.000-07:00

Meet Our Little Miracle

LAWSON M

September 2, 2011 4:23 p.m.

6lbs 1 oz 18 3/4 in

36 Weeks..what a ride it's been!!!

2011-08-26T09:17:00.000-07:00

Well, we've made it to 36 weeks today. Yay. A few weeks ago we weren't sure we would make it this far. The last few weeks have been a whurl wind of excitment.

Here is the short version.

At 32 weeks I was put on bed rest for high blood pressure
At 34 weeks we started making what seemed like too many trips to the hospital for high BP only to be sent home again. After the fourth trip in they decided it was time to admit us. My BP's wouldn't go below the 180-190/100's. We spent a week in the hospital and I was given every combination of BP meds including two rounds of IV meds to try to get my pressures down. Nothing was working so it was in to an ambulance and off to the High Risk unit at another hospital. We ended up spening another week at that hospital where they were finally able to stabalize my pressures with what they called the highest dose of BP meds they had ever had to give.

We were finally released to go home on strict bed rest with the assumption of all 5 high risk doctors that we would be back in a week to deliver.

Well, I don't ever like to do things the normal way or the easy way and upon returning home my BP's have decided to drop to a really low rate (which they don't want since baby has gotten so used to the higher blood pressures). I have been taken off of one of the medications and had the other reduced twice. The doctors are completely baffled, as am I. They said they have never seen someone go from one extreme to the other in this direction. They were sure with how much trouble they had getting me stable that I would for sure progress into preeclampsia shortly and deliver.

We had another ultrasound, nst and doctors visit yesterday and everything is looking awesome. Baby is measuring right on track at 6lbs 1/4oz (65%) has a great heartbeat and all looks good on the ultrasound. So now, the doctors are saying they will let us go as far as 39 weeks at which point they will induce. I was so worried about early delivery and now it looks like we will make it almost full term. I am so happy he gets to cook in there a little while longer and develop his lungs more. With my GD and the fact he's a boy I know every day helps in the lung department.

Have a Blessed day!

Sarah

8 Months

2011-07-30T13:11:00.000-07:00

We have made it to eight months. Yay!!!

Other than that, not much to report. Just rockin' the bed rest and counting each day as a blessing. The longer we can keep him in there the better. I'm hoping long enough for his little lungs to develope nice and healthy and strong so we don't have to spend any time in the NICU and we can snuggle up all his sweet baby goodness from day one.

The monotoney of bed rest is broken up a bit by the twice weekly NST's and twice monthly doctors appointments and once monthly growth ultrasounds. Needless to say, the doctors office is my home away from home these days. I do love the gals though so it makes for a good time.

Have a blessed day,

Sarah

31 Weeks and you guessed it.....

2011-07-22T11:24:00.000-07:00

permanent bed rest till Little Man arrives (hopefully sometime in September).

The bad news:
1) My blood pressure was 173/98 at yesterdays NST which is what prompted the bed rest.
2) I have to do another 24hr urine test.

The good news:
1) My cervix is still nice and long and closed
2) I'm not having any contractions
3) All of my tests have come back negative for Pre-clampsia so far
4) I work for the best boss/company in the world and they are allowing me to work from home on my laptop so I won't miss out on the next 6-9 weeks of work/pay.
5) Little Man is very active which makes me very happy and assures me he is doing ok in there
6) I have the most amazing network of friends/family. I love you all and appreciate you all so much.

In other news, I am feeling pretty good. I'm more tired than I was in the second trimester but nothing to drastic and It is getting harder and harder to breath but I don't mind giving up my lung space since it means Little Man is growing. We had an ultrasound on Wednesday and he is still measuring a week ahead but that has been par for the course since 6 weeks so nothing unusual. He is estimated at 3lbs 13oz right now. He was facing away from us so we didn't get any good pictures this time. We go back at 35 weeks so hopefully he cooperates and we can get a good peak at those chubby litttle cheeks.

So, this is me, just sitting on my couch chillin for the next 6-9 weeks working on relaxing and growing this little guys so he's nice and heathly and strong when he makes his grand debut. We are so excited to meet him (in September).

Sarah

30 weeks and bed rest...

2011-07-16T10:19:00.000-07:00

30 WEEKS!!

Well, we've made it to the 30's, yay!!! Unfortunatly, with onset of week 30 came the onset of high blood pressure. I haven't been able to get my BP below 140/90 and it's been hovering more around the 160's over the lower 100's. That means bedrest and a 24 hr urine test for me this weekend and another non-stress test on Monday morning. Hopefully, we will know more after that. I am hoping that they release me for work, I need to work 8 more weeks in order to afford maternity leave so fingers crossed bed rest does the trick.

Other than the high BP I am feeling pretty good. Still have the pain for pubic seperation but since I've had it since about week 22 it has become more of a second thought than anything. I'm a little more tired than I was in the second trimester but still feeling pretty good. L moves around a lot with makes me feel good and reasures me he is doing well in there. He was moving around so much at yesterdays NST they had to keep moving the monitor to pick up his heartbeat. It was nice and strong the whole time staying in the 150's range.

I'm so excited to meet this little guy but am hoping to meet him closer to the 40 week mark than the 30 week mark. For now, it's lots of resting and Netflix LOL

Sarah

29 Weeks!!!

2011-07-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

How far along? 29 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Little Man is the size of a butternut squash! He is between 15-17 inches and weighs between 2.5-4 pounds!

Weight Gain? -10 lbs.

Stretch marks? A few that seem to come and go.

Belly button in or out? In

Sleep? Love it!!! At night it can be rough. Getting up 2 times a night to pee, but thankfully I can still fall back to sleep great.

Foods I am loving? Nothing special.

Foods I am hating? Meat, Onions

Best moment this week? Taking a day off with DH and spending it relaxing and feeling L kick and roll and move all over. The greatest feeling in the world.

Movement? Yes!

Symptoms? Heartburn, Burps, Boobs are getting more sore and sensitive. Bending over is not an easy task. Swelling, forgetfulness, restless legs, round ligament pain when I sneeze (OUCH!)...some rib pain.

Gender? A handsome little Lawson!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Our shower at the end of the month. Finishing his nursery wall murals and continuing to get his nursery ready for him.

Milestone: Last week in the "20's"!!

Emotions: Getting crankier  LOL

Your baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel. His muscles and lungs are continuing to mature, and his head is growing bigger to make room for his developing brain. To meet his increasing nutritional demands, you'll need plenty of protein, vitamins C, folic acid, and iron. And because his bones are soaking up lots of calcium, be sure to drink your milk (or find another good source of calcium, such as cheese, yogurt, or enriched orange juice). This trimester, about 250 milligrams of calcium are deposited in your baby's hardening skeleton each day.

28 Weeks!! Third Trimester Baby!!!!

2011-07-01T15:54:00.000-07:00

How far along? 28 Weeks!! Third Trimester!!! WOW!!!

Baby's size? Little Man is over 2 lbs and 15 inches. Whoa, baby! :)

Weight Gain? -12 lbs.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Belly button in or out? More shallow

Sleep? Same Hubby bought me a nice mattress pad and set up some blankets on my side of the bed to try to help. He is so sweet. I had to spend a day at home this week because my hips hurt so bad I couldn’t walk. They seem to be better with the new bed set up but it still hurts in the middle of the night and in the morning when I have to get up to pee.

Foods I am loving? Foods I would be loving if I could eat them. Ice Cream please and Chocolate. But since I can’t have those right now I’m not really loving anything in particular.

Foods I am hating? Meat.

Best moment this week? Making it to the third trimester

Movement? Yes!

Symptoms? Sore boobs, heartburn (Tums? Yes please!!), sore hips, sore pubic bone, frequent urination.

Gender? A handsome little Lawson!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up the nursery, our hospital tour in two weeks, another ultrasound and starting pre-natal classes in a few weeks.

Milestone: 3rd trimester!!

Emotions: Pretty even keel except for the occasional bout of shear excitement that I am pregnant ;)

By this week, your baby weighs two and a quarter pounds (like a Chinese cabbage) and measures 14.8 inches from the top of her head to her heels. She can blink her eyes, which now sport lashes. With her eyesight developing, she may be able to see the light that filters in through your womb. She's also developing billions of neurons in her brain and adding more body fat in preparation for life in the outside world.

Happy Fourth!!! Sarah

Nursery Sneak Peek

2011-06-29T13:26:00.000-07:00

Here is a sneak peek at Lawsons nursery. We decided to go with owls and turtles but couldn't resist this chubby little bird so he has snuck his way onto the wall mural and a little bit of the crib skirt. The main theme is turtles but the wall mural and crib blanket will have owls as well. I will post more pictures after it's all put together.

Sarah

27 Weeks!!! And a new picture :)

2011-06-23T11:46:00.000-07:00

How far along? 27 Weeks!! Some books say this is the first week of the 3rd trimester. Some say it's next week. If I go by the doctors due date, I am 27 weeks on Friday. If I go by my due date, I am 28 weeks on Monday. Either way, we are almost to the third trimester 

Baby's size? Little Man should be about 13-14 1/2 inches and 1.5-2 lbs. However, we had an ultrasound yesterday and he is weighing in at a whopping 2.6lbs  Big boy, but love those chubby cheeks.

Weight Gain? -12

Stretch marks? Nope.

Belly button in or out? In. I think it’s going to hang out in there for the long haul.

Sleep? Same, I did sleep in a bed that had a mattress pad over the weekend though and it was heaven so I will be investing in one of those very soon.

Foods I am loving? Nothing in particular at this point.

Foods I am hating? Meat. Which is weird because most people crave meat when their pregnant with boys. My husband says it’s because I’m so stubborn LOL

Best moment this week? Seeing him on the ultrasound!!!

Movement? Yes! Are you kidding me? This kid is a mover and a shaker and I LOVE every minute of it!!! I definitely want to meet him in September and hold him in my arms but I could be pregnant forever and love it, feeling his little kicks and movements. It brings a smile to my face every time.

Symptoms? Same.

Gender? All Boy!!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Another ultrasound on July 20th and my baby shower on July 31st.

Emotions: Pretty mellow lately. Other than the occasional irritation with stupid drivers but that was there before I was pregnant 

This week, your baby weighs almost 2 pounds (like a head of cauliflower) and is about 14 1/2 inches long with her legs extended. She's sleeping and waking at regular intervals, opening and closing her eyes, and perhaps even sucking her fingers. With more brain tissue developing, your baby's brain is very active now. While her lungs are still immature, they would be capable of functioning — with a lot of medical help — if she were to be born now. Chalk up any tiny rhythmic movements you may be feeling to a case of baby hiccups, which may be common from now on. Each episode usually lasts only a few moments, and they don't bother her, so just relax and enjoy the tickle.

Sarah

26 weeks!!!!

2011-06-17T20:05:00.000-07:00

2011-06-10T13:20:00.000-07:00

How far along? 25 Weeks!! Only 15 weeks to go!

Baby's size? Little Man is the size of an eggplant! About 13-14 1/2 inches and 1.5-2 lbs.

Weight Gain? -10
Maternity clothes? Yes, and I LOVE them.

Stretch marks? A few but nothing new

Belly button in or out? In. I don't think it will ever get to be an outtie but that's fine.

Sleep? Could be better if my hips didn't hurt so much and it didn't hurt to roll over and I didn't have to get up multiple times a night to pee. Other than that, sleep is great :) But I'm not complaining. I'll take it.

Foods I am loving? Nothing special
Foods I am hating? Meat

Best moment this week? My birthday weekend and Little L moving a lot for DH.

Movement? Definitely!! We have a mover on our hands and I love it.

Symptoms? Sore hips/pubic bone, heartburn, sore boobs, tired at night, emotional.

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant.

What I'm looking forward to? Continuing to work on the nursery (I'll post pics when it's all done), registering this weekend.
Emotions: Still getting irritated more easily than usual but not to bad.

Head to heels, your baby now measures about 13 1/2 inches. Her weight — a pound and a half — isn't much more than an average rutabaga, but she's beginning to exchange her long, lean look for some baby fat. As she does, her wrinkled skin will begin to smooth out and she'll start to look more and more like a newborn. She's also growing more hair — and if you could see it, you'd now be able to discern its color and texture

Birthday Weekend and 24 Weeks!

2011-06-07T13:30:00.000-07:00

24 weeks and a few days late ;) Not much to update things are still moving along smoothly and Little L is moving all over the place making my stomach jump and roll all over. I could sit and stare at it all day.

In other news, this weekend was my birthday and my DH took me to the coast for a three day getaway. It was absolutely amazing and just what we needed.

Friday we slept in and then headed out, we stopped on the way at a popular casino that has the best buffett. Yummy yummy. We didn't gamble for very long because I didn't want to be around the smoke but I did win $130 on a machine before we got back on the road. :) We arrived at the condo we were staying at for the weekend and it was so nice. Two bedrooms, two bathrooms (both with large jacuzzi tubs) a living room, dining room and kitchen. It was like our own little home away from home.

Saturday we slept in a little and then headed out to the local outlet mall. I had a blast shopping for Little L. He made a haul. Heee heeeee heeee

After shopping we stopped at one of the famous Clam Chowder restaurants and had some yummy Slumgolion (sp?) and Halibut fish and chips. It was so delicious.

After lunch we headed to the local aquaruim. It was alot of fun and I had gotten a half off coupon on Groupon so that made it even better. We bought Little L a baby stuffed turtle and a book about turtles. His nursery is going to be turtles and owls. (post on that later). This isn't a very good picture because of the flash but I wanted to get a picture of DH next to the crazy crab. That is so not ok!!! Good thing we don't live in Japan. I would freak out if I saw one of these without 2 feet of tempered glass between us.

We went back to the condo to rest after the aquarium. My ankles were nice and huge after all that walking so I wanted to put them up for a while. That evening we headed to the local casino since they have a nice non-smoking section and I could hang out in there while DH played some cards. He has been wanting to go for a long time so it was nice he got to do something he wanted to do.

Sunday (my birthday) we got up early and headed for home. We ate at a cute little breakfast joint then went into one of the local towns and did some window shopping and whale watching before leaving for home.

On the way home we stopped at some popular outlets and I of course had to buy Little L some more clothes :) The deals were just too good to pass up. All of the clothes above we got at 70% off :)

By the time we made it home we were exhausted and headed to bed early so we could be rested for the Monday morning work grind but the weekend was so worth it. I have the best DH in the world and am so lucky he spoiles me the way he does. Such a great birthday weekend. And, Little L was nice and active all weekend which made it even better :)

Sarah

Fun Facts Friday! 23 Weeks!!

2011-05-27T12:47:00.000-07:00

How far along? 23 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Little Man is the length of a papaya. About 10.5-12.5 inches and one WHOLE POUND!! :)

Weight Gain? -10 lbs still.

Maternity clothes? Still the same...all maternity pants, some regular and some maternity tops.

Stretch marks? Some

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Same but the pelvic pain seems to be easing up a bit so that helps.

Foods I am loving? Bacon, Bean Burritos, Water

Foods I am hating? Meat

Best moment this week? I was laying with my stomach to DH's back one night (spooning) and in the morning he said that L was kicking and punching and rolling around for about 20 min and he could feel the whole thing on his back. I slept through the whole thing. I was like a little father son moment. I loved it and I think he did too.

Movement? Yes, more and more each week. He is definitely more active at night but I feel him throught the day too.

Symptoms? Sore boobs, tired, hungry, emotional. ;) I love every minute of it.

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Everything

Milestone: Almost to six months!! And seeing and feeling the baby!!

Emotions: Easily irritated. I try not to but some people have been getting on my nerves and I just have to walk away. Also, cry at the drop of a hat!

At 11 inches (the length of a spaghetti squash) and almost 1 pound, your baby is starting to look like a miniature newborn. His lips, eyelids, and eyebrows are becoming more distinct, and he's even developing tiny tooth buds beneath his gums. His eyes have formed, but his irises (the colored part of the eye) still lack pigment. If you could see inside your womb, you'd be able to spot the fine hair (lanugo) that covers his body and the deep wrinkles on his skin, which he'll sport until he adds a padding of fat to fill them in. Inside his belly, his pancreas — essential for the production of some important hormones — is developing steadily.

Fun Facts Friday!! 22 Weeks!!!

2011-05-20T13:43:00.000-07:00

How far along? 22 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Little Man is the length of a papaya. About 10.5-12.5 inches and one WHOLE POUND!! :)

Weight Gain? -10 lbs still. I swear I’m eating three whole meals and two snacks a day but he lbs just don’t want to come on. I’m sure they will catch up to be in the end.

Maternity clothes? Still the same...all maternity pants, some regular and some maternity tops.

Stretch marks? Some

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Same but the pelvic pain seems to be easing up a bit so that helps.

Foods I am loving? Bacon, Bean Burritos, Water

Foods I am hating? Apparently, Onions (made me throw up the other night) and string cheese.

Best moment this week? DH feeling L move TWICE. Once he kicked/hit him so hard in the hand I thought he was going to break through LOL DH says he is giving him high fives. It’s adorable. He will put his hand on my tummy and when he kicks he says “Hi Five”. I love that man.

Movement? Yes, more and more each week. Plus, yesterday I could feel L stretching and touch his little foot/hand and push back on it. So cool.

Symptoms? Sore boobs, tired, hungry, emotional. ;) I love every minute of it.

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Working on his room and feeling him more and more! We have the crib and DH parents are buying the dresser so now we need to get in gear and clean the nursery so we can start decorating.

Weekly Wisdom: Ridiculous advice will start coming your way especially around the 20 week mark. Just smile and realize it's a great thing to joke about with your husband later in the day. :)

Milestone: Almost to six months!! And seeing and feeling the baby!!

Emotions: Easily irritated. I try not to but some people have been getting on my nerves and I just have to walk away. Also, cry at the drop of a hat!

Fun Facts Friday!!! 21 Weeks!!!!!

2011-05-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

How far along? 21 Weeks!! Over half way!!!

Baby's size? Little Man is the length of a banana or a carrot. 10.5 inches and 12.5 ounces...The Little Man grew about 4 inches this week!! And since his weight was ahead of this last week, I am sure he is weighing more than that this week.

Weight Gain? Down 8lbs. Gain a couple back after last week’s sickness

Maternity clothes? Regular tops, all my pants are maternity.

Stretch marks? Some

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Not bad while I’m sleeping but I started having pelvic pain a week ago so it hurts to turn over in bed and when I have to get up to pee. Sleeping with a pillow between my legs but that doesn’t seem to help much.

Foods I am loving? Not much of anything.

Foods I am hating? Meat. I told DH the other day I think L is going to be a vegetarian because most people who are pregnant with boys crave meat and I can’t stand it  He didn’t like that idea very much since he is definitely a steak and potatoes kind of guy.

Best moment this week? Spending the Weekend at my nephew’s first birthday and spending all day Sunday with my mom buying our crib and play yard, going to lunch, and getting pedicures.

Movement? Yes. But not nearly as often as I would like to be feeling at this point. I asked the OB about this and she told me it was normal and that L still has a lot of fluid to move around in and the bigger he gets the more I will feel him and the more frequent.

Symptoms? Sore breasts, tired, hip and pelvic pain, increased sense of smell.

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Getting the house cleaned so we can start decorating his room and feeling him more and more

Milestone: over half way there!

Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long — the length of a carrot. You may soon feel like she's practicing martial arts as her initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to her activity as you get to know her better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now, and if you're having a girl, her vagina has begun to form as well

Sarah

Fun Facts Friday! 20 Weeks!!!

2011-05-06T17:38:00.000-07:00

How far along? 20 Weeks!! Half way! How is that even possible? My mind is still looking at the positive HPT in shock. Half way!!!! We are so blessed.

Baby's size? Little Man is the size of a cantaloupe. 6.5 inches and 10.5 ounces...according to thebump.com. However, last week at our ultrasound he weighed 12 ounces.

Weight Gain? Down 12 lbs. This week’s bought with the flu bug did not help in the weight gain area.

Maternity clothes? Regular tops. All my pants are maternity and I love, love, love them.

Stretch marks? A few

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Not too bad but getting worse as my joints start to ache. The pillow between the leg seems to help but not entirely.

Foods I am loving? Not really any lately. Still like bacon but not as much as I used to. I’m craving chocolate covered sunflower seeds but I think that’s only because I can’t have them.

Foods I am hating? Meat

Best moment this week? Getting to see L on ultrasound again today and Hubby feeling L move this morning. It was only once and very light and quick but he felt him. The look on his face was priceless.

Movement? Yes. Up until two days ago it was all down really low but I am starting to feel L up by my belly button every once in a while now as well.

Symptoms? Sore boobs, frequent urination, muscle/joint aches, growing belly, irritable.

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Everything!!! More movement, stronger kicks, setting up the nursery.

Milestone: Being half way through until the baby comes!!

Put your hands in the air, wave em like you just don't care :)

The U/S tech said it looked like he was giving us the "L" Loser sign LOL

Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)

He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).

Sarah

Fun Facts Friday! 19 Weeks!!!!

2011-04-29T16:53:00.000-07:00

How far along? 19 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Little Man is the size of a mango. 6 inches and 8.5 ounces...baby gained about 2 ounces this week! Yay for soon to be baby fat. :)

Weight Gain? Still down 5lbs but L is growing great so that’s all that matters.

Maternity clothes? Yes please

Stretch marks? A few

Belly button in or out? Still in

Sleep? Sleep is much better now that I have my pillow to sleep with

Foods I am loving? Bacon still

Foods I am hating? Meat

Best moment this week? Finding out we are having a son

Movement? Yes. All day especially after I eat.

Symptoms? Movement, round ligament pain at night, sore breasts, growing belly

Gender? A LITTLE MAN!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Another ultrasound next Friday to get a look at L’s spine.

Weekly Wisdom: You can be 110% sure of the gender and be completely wrong. So just be prepared either way even if you are SOOOOO convinced of its gender.

Milestone: Finding out the gender!! This week the baby can hear us now and he is starting to recognize our voices and hear my heartbeat. This week we learned he is a HE. I feel like this week we both are finally fully aware of each other and that's pretty darn amazing if you ask me. :)

Emotions: CRAZY!! I’m having a SON!!!! It makes it so much more real to know that I am carrying a little man and he has a name and everything. He is our son, our little miracle.

Your baby's sensory development is exploding! Her brain is designating specialized areas for smell, taste, hearing, vision, and touch. Some research suggests that she may be able to hear your voice now, so don't be shy about reading aloud, talking to her, or singing a happy tune if the mood strikes you.

Your baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces and measures 6 inches, head to bottom — about the size of a large heirloom tomato. Her arms and legs are in the right proportions to each other and the rest of her body now. Her kidneys continue to make urine and the hair on her scalp is sprouting. A waxy protective coating called the vernix caseosa is forming on her skin to prevent it from pickling in the amniotic fluid.

IT'S A.................................

2011-04-28T13:03:00.000-07:00

Before I begin our story from yesterday's anatomy ultrasound I ask that you please say some prayers for some people who are going through one of the hardest times of their life. See story HERE. They're son has been battling cancer and they have just been told there is nothing more than can do but wait for him to pass. It is such a sad story and my heart breaks for them.

So, yesterday was a whirlwind day to say the least. Our anatomy scan was not scheduled until 1:00 in the afternoon so I decided to work the beginning of the day to occupy my mind. It was a good thing I did since my co-worker ended up stuck in Minneapolis and I had some critical items that had to be dealt with that morning. Needless to say, I was happy to have something to keep my mind occupied.

I finally left work at 12:30 and headed for the doctors. I completely underestimated the time it would take to get there and was in a panic when I realized I would be cutting it really close. Luckily, I happened to get behind a cop car that was driving just a weeee bit over the speed limit so I followed him and made it JUST in time :)

We were only there for a few minutes when the ultrasound tech, Jane, called us back. I have to say that this is our fourth ultrasound and she has somehow been our tech for ALL of them. She is the sweetest woman and makes me feel so at ease and makes the whole experience so enjoyable for hubby and me. We got back into the room and settled in and she asks us if we want to find out the gender. We of course say YES in unison. I figured she would do the anatomy scan and if there was time left she would look to see if we could find the gender. NOPE, she dove right in and that was the first thing she looked for. It took about two seconds and this is what she said...................

"Yep, that is definitely a penis"

IT'S A BOY!!!!!

Here are some pictures of our little miracle who we are already soooo in love with.

Lawson M Masten

Lawson's feet. He wouldn't uncross them ;)

Hand waving HI!!

Definitely a BOY!!!

The scan went really well and the tech said he is growing right on track and everything looks healthy and in all the right places. It was music to our ears. We do have to go back next Friday for another scan to get a picture of the spine since little guy wouldn't move once he snuggled up on his back. I can't wait to see him again and hope that we get more good news from the scan.

After the ultrasound we went and picked up a bunch of things for our gender reveal party. I, for some reason, took exactly ZERO pictures. I have no idea why. But we bought a little tiny pair of socks for each of our mothers and put them in a box and had them open them at the same time. It was perfect and everyone was so excited.

Let the shopping begin!!! :)

Here are Lawson's first Thank You cards. Love them. I had a $20 off coupon and free shipping so it was a great deal :)

Have a great day,

Sarah

Hoppy Easter!!!!

2011-04-24T09:45:00.000-07:00

Have a Very Happy Easter Everyone!!!

Sarah

Fun Facts Friday! 18 weeks!!!

2011-04-22T17:22:00.000-07:00

How far along? 18 Weeks!! I still can’t believe it :) Almost half way there!

Baby's size? Bean is the size of a sweet potato! About 5 1/2 inches and 6 1/2 ounces. Mmmm Sweet Potato fries sound sooo good.

Weight Gain? Down 5lbs

Maternity clothes? Same but I need to get my maternity jeans hemmed so I can start wearing those.

Stretch marks? A few

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Some night are better than others. I'm usually getting up around 1-2 times a night to pee. Thankfully though I fall back to sleep pretty quickly.

Foods I am loving? Bacon 

Foods I am hating? Meat

Best moment this week? Feeling Bean moving every day usually after meals.

Movement? Absolutely. The greatest feeling in the world.

Symptoms? Forgetfulness, hip and back aches at night or if standing to long (i.e. spending too much time in the craft store walking around) 

Gender? WEDNESDAY!!! :)

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out Bean's gender!!!!

Milestone: 18 weeks pregnant!!

Emotions: Short fused, still cry at a lot of things and every once in a while when Bean moves a feeling of completely and utter happiness.

Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long (about the length of a bell pepper) and he weighs almost 7 ounces. He's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. His blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and his ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from his head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around his nerves, a process that will continue for a year after he's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.

Happy Friday,
Sarah

Fun Facts Friday - 17 Weeks!!!

2011-04-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

I apologize I didn't post for 16 Weeks. Things have been a little crazy. My Grandmother past away and I spent a week back home with family. I know she is in a better place and she went peacefully in her sleep but we are still in a state of shock. She was perfectly healthy. We will miss her so much. Love you Grandma!!

How far along? 17 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Cupcake is the size of an onion! About 5 inches and 6 ounces. Baby gained an ounce and half this week!!

Weight Gain? Still down about 3lbs.

Maternity clothes? Still in regular clothes but loving my belly band.

Stretch marks? A few

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Some night are better than others. I’ve been getting a lot of pain in my hips and toss and turn all night. Used a pillow between my knees last night and it seemed to help. Still getting up a couple times a night to pee.

Foods I am loving? Well, with the Gestational Diabetes I can’t eat much of anything I want to but Bacon is my best friend. I’m trying not to eat too much of it but I love, love, love it!!!

Foods I am hating? Meat!!!

Best moment this week? Getting to hear beans heartbeat again after a long week!!

Movement? Yes, about once a day now but still very light and only when I’m sitting really still. Bean did go crazy at my nieces softball tournament though for about three hours. I think because he/she can hear now and it was LOUD.

Symptoms? Boobs still a little sore, hungry but have to eat every two hours with the GD so that seems to keep it at bay for the most part. Lots of peeing.

Gender? 12 more days till we find out!!!!!

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out Bean’s gender.

Weekly Wisdom: Always carry Kleenex. You never know what will make you cry at the drop of a hat. LOL

Milestone: Feeling Bean move and knowing it wasn’t indigestion. And of course being 17 weeks pregnant!!

Emotions: As long as I get enough sleep and eat every two-three hours at least something I am good. I cry at a lot of things though. Commercials even make me cry! :)

Your baby's skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone, and the umbilical cord — her lifeline to the placenta — is growing stronger and thicker. Your baby weighs 5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and she's around 5 inches long from head to bottom. She can move her joints, and her sweat glands are starting to develop.

Sarah

Friday Fun Facts - 15 Weeks!!!

2011-04-01T12:29:00.000-07:00

How far along? 15 Weeks!

Baby's size? Bean is the size of a navel orange! About 4 inches and 2 ounces.

Weight Gain? Still down 3lbs

Maternity clothes? Still in regular tops and jeans but wearing them unbuttoned with my BBand.

Stretch marks? No.

Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Some nights are better than others, but overall I'm sleeping ok.

Foods I am loving? Oranges and Bacon. This just started a couple days ago and I can’t get enough. Bacon Bacon Bacon. I HATED Bacon before I got pregnant.

Foods I am hating? Still meat

Best moment this week? Hearing Bean’s heartbeat on the Doppler for the first time :)

Movement? Every once in a while I’ll feel a couple flutters. Can’t wait for them to be really noticeable.

Symptoms? New today…. Heartburn!!! I am also less coordinated and I find myself bumping into things or losing my balance. And, joy my ankles have already started swelling :(

Gender? Still thinking it's a girl. But I have moments where I think it could be a boy. We find out April 27th :) I can’t wait.

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out Bean's gender AND feeling more movement!!

Milestones: I am over a third of the way through! Wow that sounds so weird to say.

Your growing baby now measures about 4 inches long, crown to rump, and weighs in at about 2 1/2 ounces (about the size of an orange). She's busy moving amniotic fluid through her nose and upper respiratory tract, which helps the primitive air sacs in her lungs begin to develop. Her legs are growing longer than her arms now, and she can move all of her joints and limbs. Although her eyelids are still fusted shut, she can sense light. If you shine a flashlight at your tummy, for instance, she's likely to move away from the beam. There's not much for your baby to taste at this point, but she is forming taste buds. Finally, if you have an unltrasound this week, you may be able to find out whether your baby's a boy or a girl! (Don't be too disappointed if it remains a mystery, though. Nailing down your baby's sex depends on the clarity of the picture and on your baby's position. He or she may be modestly cureld up or turned in such a way as to "hide the goods.")

My Miracle Monday 14 Weeks!!

2011-03-21T14:58:00.000-07:00

How far along? 14 weeks!!
Baby's size? Bean is the size of a lemon! About 3 1/2 inches and 1 1/2 ounces.

Weight Gain? Still down about 3lbs.

Maternity clothes? Finally got my Belly Band and am in love with it. Can’t button my pants anymore and don’t want to buy new ones just yet.

Stretch marks? No.
Belly button in or out? Still in.

Sleep? Sleep is my new favorite hobby. Along with getting up to pee twice a night.

Foods I am loving? Oranges and Pickles

Foods I am hating? Meat!!!

Best moment this week? Going away for the weekend and relaxing.

Movement? None yet that I can feel yet. I can't wait!!

Symptoms? My nose has been stuffy a lot and the longer it lasts the more.

My sense of smell is still unreal. I will smell things that those around me can't even smell.

The trips to the bathroom to pee have slowed down a little.

My boobs are still sore, but they have been really been horrible. They just feel fuller.

And the dreams...oh the dreams! :)

Gender? Still thinking it's a girl. But I have moments where I think it could be a boy.

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out Bean’s gender AND feeling movement!!

Milestones: Being in my 2nd trimester!! Woot Woot!

Emotions: This was a hard week. I had a funeral to attend and pregnancy hormones and funerals do not mix well. Pretty much everything makes me cry these days It doesn’t take much to set me off. Let’s just say the guy at the Madras Taco Time got an ear full yesterday when he didn’t have the hot sauce I wanted. LOL

This week's big developments: Your baby can now squint, frown, grimace, pee, and possibly suck his thumb! Thanks to brain impulses, his facial muscles are getting a workout as his tiny features form one expression after another. His kidneys are producing urine, which he releases into the amniotic fluid around him — a process he'll keep up until birth. He can grasp, too, and if you're having an ultrasound now, you may even catch him sucking his thumb.

In other news: Your baby's stretching out. From head to bottom, he measures 3 1/2 inches — about the size of a lemon — and he weighs 1 1/2 ounces. His body's growing faster than his head, which now sits upon a more distinct neck. By the end of this week, his arms will have grown to a length that's in proportion to the rest of his body. (His legs still have some lengthening to do.) He's starting to develop an ultra-fine, downy covering of hair, called lanugo, all over his body. Your baby's liver starts making bile this week — a sign that it's doing its job right — and his spleen starts helping in the production of red blood cells. Though you can't feel his tiny punches and kicks yet, your little pugilist's hands and feet (which now measure about 1/2 inch long) are more flexible and active.

My Miracle Monday 13 Weeks!

2011-03-14T13:05:00.000-07:00

How far along? 13 Weeks...2nd trimester!!

Baby's size? Bean is the size of a peach! About 3 inches!

Weight Gain? Down 3lbs

Maternity clothes? Not yet but pants have to be unbuttoned to be comfortable. I can't wait for my Belly Band to arrive.

Stretch marks? No

Sleep? Great except for the frequent trips to the bathroom.

Foods I am loving? Bean Burritos and Pickles of course. I'm craving a lot of other things but since being diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes I can't have the majority of them. Small price to pay :) I'll eat when the baby's here.

Foods I am hating? Meat. I already hated red meat before I was pregnant but now all meats make me nauseas which means for lots of eggs and peanut butter for protein :)

Best moment this week? Seeing Bean on the ultrasound, moving all over, at today's doctors apt. I still can't wrap my head around the fact there is a little living person growing inside me. ME. Ahhh...such a miracle.

Movement? I think I can feel little flutters every once in a while but then they say it's too early so it must just be gas bubbles. Can't wait for the real thing!!!

Symptoms? The nausea has pretty much gone and the trips to the bathroom have slightly improved but the tiredness is in full force and if I don't remember to eat on time I am starving. Boobs still hurt but not near as bad.

Gender? Still thinking it's a girl. But, today's ultrasound the heartbeat was 156 bpm so now I'm not as confident. I can't wait for our gender ultrasound. We for sure have a girl’s name picked out but are nowhere near a boy’s name.

What I miss? What I miss is nothing in comparison to being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out Bean's gender AND feeling movement!! I can't wait for both.

Weekly Wisdom: Don't stress yourself out over phantom symptoms. More than likely it is nothing.

Milestones: Being in my 2nd trimester!! Woot Woot!

Emotions: Out of control. I almost ran over a J walker at the cross walk and was ready to tell the officer I was completely aware of my actions and the guy should have known better than to walk out in front of a pregnant lady. And, cry at everything on TV. Most of which I am 100% certain is not sad in any way :)

Fingerprints have formed on your baby's tiny fingertips, her veins and organs are clearly visible through her still-thin skin, and her body is starting to catch up with her head — which makes up just a third of her body size now. If you're having a girl, she now has more than 2 million eggs in her ovaries. Your baby is almost 3 inches long (the size of a medium shrimp) and weighs nearly an ounce.

What a year it's been so far.....

2011-03-04T12:58:00.000-08:00

Well....... I'm sure you've been wondering what I've been up to since my last post. IN DECEMBER!! Agghhhh what a bad blogger I've been. Please forgive me. Here is a little of what I've been up to.

Dec 28th 2010:
Third round of Clomid shows progesterone level at 3.4 meaning my husband has a better chance of ovulating than I do. Decide to go back on birth control pills and try to lose more weight so in an attempt to jump start ovulation naturally.

Jan 14th 2011:
Fill birth control prescription.

Jan 15th 2011:
Decide to take a HPT just to make sure I'm not pregnant (yeah right) but will feel better before popping my first pill to see yet another stark snow white negative. This is what I saw....

OMG! OMG! OMG! Can this really be happening right now? But I didn't ovulate right?

Jan 16th 2011:

Pregnancy confirmed by doctors P test.

Jan 17th 2011:

First beta 1395 :) WOW!! Last time we tested this early it was at 32. Major difference and instead of the doctors telling us it was a non viable pregnancy she said "pregnancy confirmed" :)

Jan 20th 2011:

Second beta 3651, numbers rising prefectly :) Still in shock

Jan 27th 2011:

First Ultrasound get to see Baby Beans little heart beating away at 122 bpm. Measuring 5w6d

Feb 4th 2011:

Second Ultrasound get to see Baby Bean's heart beating away 180 bpm and get to hear it for the first time. Music to our ears. Also got to see a little bit of a wiggle :)

Mar 3rd 2011:
Get to see Baby Bean again. This time B was very active. Jumping all over the place and waving at us. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Got to hear the heart beat again and it was going strong at 175bpm. I feel like it's a girl and the high heartbeats seem to be confirming it. Of course I know that is just a wives tale but I have a 50% chance of being right :) LOL

Profile Pic :)

My mom thinks B's smiling in this one :)

Sooooo..... that is what we have been up to since the New Year. I am so excited to reach twelve weeks on Monday and can't wait to experience all that pregnancy has to bring. To all of those who are still struggling with infertility I am so sorry and I do not forget the journey we have been on. I know that you are going through so much and you are in my heart and prayers.

Christmas 2010

2010-12-09T12:06:00.001-08:00

French Vintage Holiday Card

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Baby Shoes

2010-12-07T07:59:00.000-08:00

I saw this on a friends post and it really hit home.

"Ernest Hemingway was given a challenge: to write a complete story, in under 10 words. Hemingway, known for his brevity, was able to do it in six."

For Sale: Baby shoes, never worn.

Another bust!!!

2010-12-03T12:09:00.000-08:00

Well, cycle 1 on 2000 mg Metformin and 50mg Clomid was a bust. Not just a bust, a BIG bust. Last cycle I was only on 2000 gm Metformin and my progesteron level was at 9.1. This cycle with the addition of Clomid my progesteron was at 5.1. I don't understand how my level went DOWN. So frustrating. I know we are still at the beginning of our journey and I feel so much for those of you who are so much further in to your journey. Bless you for all you have indured. My doctor is uping my Clomid to 100mg for this coming cycle. Now I just wait for AF to get her so we can get this show on the road :)

DH and I did take a couple days off this week and headed to the coast for a MUCH needed vacation. It was so realxing and so nice to just spend time together and not think about TTC or work or life. We stayed in a two bedroom condo with a jacuzzi tub that my mom scorred for us for $36 a night. It was amazing :) A much needed break before we dive into this new cycle.

Happy Holidays!!

Holiday Shopping with CSN

2010-11-18T12:56:00.000-08:00

Are you looking for some great gift ideas for the holiday season? Check out my new favorite online store CSN. They have anything from a counter stool to a new pair of shoes. I have been checking out all of their web sites and am definitely impressed with their wide varietyelections. I have even found an adorable crib at an amazing price. Someday, when we finally are in need of one, I know where to find it :) Until then I will definitely be shopping some of their other amazing items.

The exciting part....for an upcoming review, CSN stores are going to let me pick something to review!! I am also working with them on coordinating my very first GIVEAWAY!! So check them out and stay tuned :)

i HEART Shutterfly!!

2010-11-17T13:24:00.000-08:00

Why do I heart Shutterfly you may ask. Well, possibly because being on Clomid has made be an emotion wreck :) However, it is more likely that I heart them because they are amazing. I have created and ordrered hard bound books, cards and photo prints from them in the past and have been 100% satisfied with their product every time. Why am I raving about Shutterfly you may ask. Well, because not only do I love the products they have to offer but also because they have bloggers an opportunity to recieve 50 free holiday cards. It's that amazing. I think so. I was of course already planning on buying my holiday cards from Shutterfly but now....they are free :) Which means I can use the money I was going to spend to buy something else off of their site :) Hmmmm what should I create, a new photo book? We shall see, we shall see.

Here are a few of my favorites from this year.

Faith Hope Love Religious 5x7 photo card

Modern Ornaments Christmas card 4x6

Peppermint Swirls Christmas 4x6

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Let the fun begin....

2010-11-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

I am officially at the end of day two of my first five day round of Clomid 50mg + Metformin 2000mg daily. I have not experienced any side effects...... YET. I am thinking this is either a good thing ( meaning I will get through this round with no side effects and end up with a BFP at the end of this cycle ) or, this is a bad thing (meaning my body is not responding to the medication which means no ovulation and on to the next step). I am really hoping for the first option. I know the likely hood that we would get pregnant on our first round is extremely low but a girl can hope :) In the least I am crossing my fingers that we find the medication is making me ovulate which would put us one step closer to the BFP we are so patiently hoping for.

In other news, I have spent this past weekend with my amazing parents watching my little sister play in the 1A State Volleyball tournament (she's not my sister by blood but my mom basically raised her and her little sister from birth, watching them 10 hrs a day 5-6 days a week, so they feel like my real sisters and I love them just the same). Our team ended up coming in 4th. Not to shabby if I do say so myself :) Very proud of them. Go Lady Rockets!!!!

I knew there was a reason I loved my new Dr.

2010-11-04T12:24:00.000-07:00

Well, I just got a message from my doctor and she has decided we will not be waiting around to see if Metformin helps me ovulate and we are moving right on to starting on Clomid!!! I am so much happier with this new doctor and her very proactive aggressive approach to us getting pregnant. She seems just as excited for us to get pregnant as we are :) Soooo, just waiting to hear back from her on what the full plan is and excited now for AF to show up so we can start our next cycle and get this show on the road :)

Hold me close, don't ever let me go....

2010-11-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

Well, it looks like our good news train has come to a screeching halt.........................

I received the results of my Day 21 Progesterone test this morning and my level was at 9.1 :( I'm not really sure what a good level is since while searching the internet I have gotten an answer of anywhere between 18 and 80 but my doctor said in her notes that this low level signals that we did not ovulate this cycle. What does this mean? It means I have beatiful eggs and LOTS of them but my body doesn't want to share them with Mr. sperm. We are continuing on Metformin for two to three more cycles to see if I ovulate at all. If not it's on to Clomid. I'm a little leary of starting on Clomid. My dad is a twin and my husband has twins on his side of the family. Not that I wouldn't be so excited to have two little miracles to love I just worry about all the health issues that go along with multiple births.

Well, enough depressing news for today. I hope everyone has a lovely Wednesday.

Halloween Goodies

2010-11-02T08:55:00.000-07:00

Halloween turned out to be a great day and I got to see so many adorable little gobblins and gouhls. Below are some pictures from the day.

My Nephew (Charzar from Pokemon) and Niece (Little Devil)

My mom makes their costumes every year :)

Of course you all know my adorable little nephew. Doesn't he make the cuttest little teddy bear :)

My favorite little duckie (It took her mom and dad 10 years, 6 mnths of medicaly induced menopause and three rounds of IVF to get her. Plus she was the last of two eggs. If she didn't stick they were out of luck. Talk about a little miracle!!!)

Wonder Woman and her Ducky sidekick Tootsie Roll :)

Cowboy

The door way into my teams Halloween area (Western Saloon)

Inside the saloon

in side the saloon

My two (big) bosses

Monsters Inc.

more Monsters Inc.

The game of LIFE

LIFE wheel

Enterance to building

More LIFE

Yoda

Dora the Explorer

Souther Bell

That time of year again

2010-10-28T10:19:00.000-07:00

Well, it's that time of year again, the time of year that I love. The fall leaves are all changing into brilliant colors or red, orange, yellow and green. The air seems to be so much crisper than the rest of the year. All I want to do is curl up in my DH's arms by a fire place and sip hot chocolate with teeny tiny marshmallows.

It's also the time of year that I dread. The people around me are all talking about what their children are going to be for Halloween and my work is abuzz with Halloween planning. If I have not posted it before, Halloween is a BIG deal at my work. Every "Team" is given $500 and has to come up with a theme and then is given designated areas of the building to decorate with that theme. We make it kid friendly and after 4 p.m. all the parents bring in their kids to trick or treat the office. I think it's a great thing and a nice place for the parents to take their children that is warm and safe. My office has close to 500 employees of which about 80% have children so you can imagine the flood of kiddies that come my way at 4 p.m. I cherish this day and being able to see all my co-worker friends in their adorable little costumes.

I however, can't help but be saddened at the same time that every year on Halloween I am reminded of what DH and I were blessed with for such a short time and that was ripped from our grasp on this day, October 31st, two years ago. My heart breaks for our angel babies and I often wonder if that will be my only experience of motherhood. Will I never get the joy of being pregnant again? Will we never get to hold our own dear baby in our arms? I do pretty well throughout the year holding back my emotions but that big, ugly green monster seems to rear his ugly head this time each year. Maybe he thinks this is a good time of year to come out seeing how everyone else is dressed up in monsters costumes or maybe it's just the emotion of it all flooding back. Whatever the case may be I am ready to create some happy memories to associate with this day. I know we will never forget our angel babies but hope that someday the pain will lessen and be replaced with the joy of a little one who can help fill a little bit of that hole in our hearts.

Sorry for the rambling. I hope everyone has an amazing Halloween and can't wait to see all the adorable costumes this year. Enjoy the beautiful fall weather and hug your babies tight as they are all true miracles no matter how they were brought into your life.

We hit a MINI jackpot......sort of.

2010-10-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

Well,

Unfortunately, we didn't win big in Vegas but we had a great time hangin out with family and taking in all that Vegas has to offer. We ate some delicious food, expecially the seafood buffet at the RIO. Highly recommended if you love seafood. We didn't win big at the Rio but it was still worth it for the food and free entertainment. I did win a little while we were there though. When we first arrived I sat down next to my MIL and put some money in a machine next to the one she was playing and on about the third spin the machine froze up on me. I still had $15.90 in the machine so I couldn't just walk away. As I sat and waited and waited for someone to come fix my machine and retrieve my money the rest of our party (there were about 15 of us), was seated for dinner. My DH was nice enough to wait with me while I was stuck out in the casino at my stupid broken machine. The first guy who came over to fix the machine was unable to figure outthe problem so he had to call in a second guy who FINALLY got it fixed. By that time I had been waiting at the machine for about half an hour and was getting extremely irritated. By the time I was finished they would all be done with dinner. Well, to my suprise, the second guy finally got the machine to work and it picked up where it had left of and the machine went into a spinning frenzy and sent me to the bonus and then retriggered the bonus and I ended up walking away with $111.00. I thought that was pretty good payout for my troubles :) LOL

On the MINI jackpot front. DH and I went in for some testing before we left on vacation, DH for an SA and me for a 3 day FSH and Estrodile. We got an email from the clinic while on vacation and it was GREAT news. I am so happy that we are starting off this time with better news than last time. DH's SA came back perfect which was a huge relief as the first time about two years ago they were a little unhappy with his results. My FSH came back at a 4 which they say is pretty great. They usually like to see it below a 9 and the lower the better. Which means I have a good egg reserve. My Estrodile came back at a 40 which is great as well. They usually like to see it at or below 80 and the lower the better. This is supposed to signal that the quality of my eggs is good as well. So, yay for that great news. Now we just need to figure out why with such great starting results it is so hard for us to GET pregnant and when we do get pregnant why it's so hard for us to STAY pregnant. Hoping this news is a signal for how the rest of this attemp is going to go and hopefully in a few months we are reporting a BFP and a few months after that the birth of a healthy little miracle.

Happy Wednesday Everyone!!!

Viva Las Vegas!!!! and CD1

2010-10-12T12:19:00.000-07:00

I'm so excited, DH and I are heading to Vegas tomorrow. We are definitely ready for a vacation. With him being on straight graveyards and me being sick all last week it's time for a little R&R and time together. We are going with a whole group of people so it should be a blast. We are staying at the Harrah's this time which is new for us. We usually stay down on Freemont street. I'm sure we will still make it down there to contribute a bit of money at some point :) Last time we went I won $1200 at the Golden Nugget so here's hoping this trip is as succesful.

On the TTC side of things I had my first CD1 on Metformin yesterday which is a great sign that it is working and hopefully we will be seeing a BFP soon. I was hoping to bring home a little jackpot from Vegas but the timing just didn't work out right. Oh well, I'm not to concerened WHERE it happens, just THAT it happens. :)

Metformin and good news

2010-10-05T12:34:00.000-07:00

Well,

The Metformin is reacting to my body COMPLETELY different than the last two times and I am not enjoying the side effects. I will however endure them and more if it means eventually getting our little miracle. It would be so much easier if I didn't have to work full time but le sigh, that is the way of the world. I do have an amazing boss and an amazing job though so I can't complain. I think my boss is more excited for us to get pregnant than we are. Well, not quite but you get the point :)

On a happier note, hubby and I are taking of for a much needed vacation to Las Vegas in 8 days and.....................I just found out that I have been shorted two weeks of vacation. Now I just need to figure out what I'm going to do with all my new found PTO (Paid Time OFF). I'm thinking of taking hubby to Mexico early next year. Maybe bring home a little souvenier if we aren't already pregnant :)

On the road again......

2010-09-29T16:50:00.000-07:00

* If you are close friends or family we ask that you please not share this information as we have decided to wait to see how things go before we tell anyone we are trying or hopefully that we are expecting.

Well,

It's official. We are TRYING again. I have been working with a dietician to try to get some weight off and that has been going pretty well as of late. So, hubby and I decided it was time to get back on that horse and start trying again. I can't say I'm not completely nervous since our last two attempts have not ended so well but I just know that we are meant to be parents and am not ready to give up trying.

I met with my doctor on Friday and am comfortable with the plan we have in place. I took by last BCP on Sep 5th and started on my first month of Metformin Sept 24th. We are going to try the Metformin (which I was on for three months the first time we got pregnant) for 3-4 months. During that time I will be doing 3 day and 21 day progesterone testing to see if I am ovulating. Since I have PCOS and Hypothyroid disease it is not known whether I ovulate when not on birth control as I can go anywhere from 3 to 6 months without a visit from you know who. Then if we aren't pregnant after those 3-4 months she will be starting us on Clomid. I hope, hope, hope the Metformin works. It's been 5 years since we first started trying and I am sooooo ready to me a mommy.

On a side note, look how adorable my nephew is :)

FRIDAY!!!

2010-08-20T12:24:00.000-07:00

Well, the diet hasn't been going so great lately. Gained back 8lbs :( Oh well, we are going to my SIL and BIL's house this weekend for a BBQ and it should be a great time with good food, good friend, great family, and lots of babies. Plus, my hubby has the weekend off after 14 days of straight graveyards. What could be better ;) Then Sunday we are supposed to be going to the horse races. This will be my first time at the races and I'm super exctied. It shoudl be a good time. I'll post some pictures next week.

Welcome back old friend

2010-07-22T12:56:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been a while since my last post. Hubby and I got rid of our internet connection at home so I only hav access through my work computer. Let's see, what has happened since I last checked in:

1) I spent a glorious 4 days in NY with my mom and sister. I am officially in love with the city and can not wait to go back again.

My mom (on the left) and I waiting for the Subway

My sis (on the left), mom and I at Battery Park getting ready to see the Statue of Liberty

Sis, Me and Mom drinking our Ozmopolitans at intermision of Wicked. The best play ever!!

2) I gouged my leg open on a picnic table
3) Two day's later I broke my pinkie toe on my suitcase while unpacking from an amazing weekending with DH. Am now sporting an adorable purple pinkie toe with my freshly pedicured toes ;)

In other news, the diet is going pretty well. I took a few weeks off for NY and a couple other mini vacation but am back on track. Down 36lbs in 13 weeks and going strong. Still hoping to meet my goal by December so we can start trying for our little miracle.

Speaking of little miracles, I woudl like to say congratulations to my cousin who just found out today that she is getting her new baby daughter. The papers are being signed and she and her DH are officially going to be parents to an adorable little 6 week old baby girl. Sophia Roselynn welcome to the family.

Friday Weight Day

2010-05-14T10:12:00.000-07:00

Week four weigh in this morning. Down 20 lbs :) Went for a walk with my mom last nigth and for the first time since I can't remember when, my back wasn't killing me :) I am going to be ready for NY in June in no time ;) Power shopping with my sister, here we come!!!

On a side note, the DH and I are going up to see our new nephew this weekend. I am sooooooo excited to actually be able to get to see him and hold him and soak up all his baby goodness :) I will post some pictures of the little glow worm when we get back :)

Happy Friday!!

Friday Weigh Day, A Baby and Food Poisoning!

2010-05-09T14:58:00.000-07:00

I would like to start off by saying Happy Mothers day to all the mothers and mother's to be out there. I can not wait till the day I can join the club :) I hope you all have an amazing day and are spoiled and appreciated for all you hard work.

This is a couple days late but here is the weight loss update. I ended up having to weigh on Thursday as I got an email in the morning that my SIL's water had broken. I wasn't sure if I would be able to weigh on Friday so I weighed Thursday instead. Down 2 more lbs for a total of 16 so far.

Speaking of my SIL's water breaking..... I am officially a new auntie. Parker David entered the world around 5:02 a.m. on 5/7/2010 weighing in @ a healthy 7lbs 12oz and 21in long. This was a great day to be born as it also happens to be his parternal granfathers birthday. This is their first grandbaby so it is extra special. My SIL was a trooper. Her water broke at 6:30 p.m. on Wednesday evening which means she was in labor for 34 1/2 hours!! Holy Cow!!

Here is a picture of the little guy, he looks alot like his daddy.

The hubby and I are planning on going up next weekend to see him since my hubby didn't get to be there when he was born. I can't wait to finally get to hold him and see how much he's changed since he was born.

Congratulations to my BIL and SIL!!!

How does the food poisoning come in to play you ask? Well, I arrived at work Thursday morning to an email from my SIL's sister letting me know my SIL's water had broken the night before. I was so excited I could barely think straight :) So I had a meeting that morning but the rest of my day was free. I called my in-laws to see what their plans were as far as making the 2 1/2 hour drive to the hospital and they weren't planning on taking off for a couple of hours. Since I have the best boss in the world I was able to go to my morning meeting and then leave for the day early enough to meet up with my in-laws and make the trip north to the hospital. We arrived at around 1:00 in the afternoon and my SIL was still dressed but hooked up the the fetal monitors and able to talk through her contractions which meant the baby wasn't coming anytime soon. So the in-laws and I decided to go get some lunch (since we had forgotten to eat with all the excitement) while we were waiting. We went to a cute little brewery in town and I ordered Grilled Salmon and a garden salad. About half way through my salmon I noticed that the entire inside was completely raw! We said something to the waiter and I was given a new lunch with a FULLY cooked piece of salmon but the damage had already been done. Soooo after no sleep in 29 hours (totally worth it to meet little Parker) and a lunch of raw fish I have spent the weekend with a very sower tummy :( Luckely I am starting to feel much better just in time to celebrate Mothers Day with my family :) Happy Mothers Day to all who are blessed with little miracles and little miracles too be and for those of us who are still waiting to be blessed with little miracles.

Friday Weigh Day!

2010-04-30T12:26:00.000-07:00

Today is start of week three and Weigh day for end of week two. I am down 3.8 for the week and 14lbs so far overall. I hope this keeps up and I can stick with this. I just know it is going to help our TTC efforts in the long run.

Happy Friday to all my Bloggies!!!

If you do nothing else today, watch this video!!!

2010-04-29T18:38:00.000-07:00

I came across this video that Kate over at Busted Plumbing Here posted today and like she said, it shook me to the core. We too have been struggling with infertility for five years and know how incredibly hard it is to explain to anyone how it feels if they haven't gone through it themselves.

You may have heard about Project IF, if not check it out at The Stirrup Queen's Project IF Here. This is Keiko's submission for Project IF, and it is amazing. Her video does an exceptional job of turning our words into live action and the impact is HUGE. Thank you Keiko for bringing our words to life.

http://vimeo.com/11214833

Baby Diet

2010-04-28T20:04:00.001-07:00

I have offically started by Baby Diet journey. It began on April 19th and so far I am down 13.2 lbs. Let's hope this keeps up and I am to a healthy pre-baby weight in no time :)

Love Land

2010-04-21T16:43:00.000-07:00

I just heard this for the first time today. So great!!!

A Giveaway...

2010-04-19T12:22:00.000-07:00

I have been following Ashley of For the love of shoes...and a baby too! for a while now and am so inspired by her story. Hop on over and check out Ashley's giveaway and follow her on her amazing journey Here!!

April Shower's bring May Flowers!!

2010-04-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

Had a very LONG but great day yesterday. Left with my MIL and FIL @ 10:25 a.m. and headed up to my SIL's baby shower 3 hrs away. Spent all day with some AMAZING women, we ate, we drank, we watched her open presents, and it was a blast. Since I only get to see my SIL and that side of our family a couple times a year it was great to get to visit with her and her family. Shout out to her sister Here who hosted the shower and made some of the most delicious food. You Rock!!!

I was a little worried I wouldn't be able to contain myself while at the shower but did a great job and am proud to report that there were no outbursts of random crying or scene making. In fact I truly enjoyed myself. Even when people insisted on repeatedly asked my MIL if this was her first. Of course it's not her first. Her first is resting peacefully in heaven, but I know that that is not socially appropriate nor the answer they were asking for. Unfortunately, holding it all in for 10+ hrs resulted in me bawling my head off from the second I hit my car's driver’s seat till I drove in my driveway a half hour later. Not because I am sad my SIL is having a baby, I cannot express enough how excited and happy I am for my SIL and BIL and their little miracle. I cannot wait to meet the little one and spoil him rotten, but because I am sad that I was not a fit enough mother to keep mine alive. Needless to say I had the worst headache of my life by the time I got home and had to take some Tylenol P.M to get through the night.

On a lighter note, here are some photos of my gorgeous SIL from the shower:

Opening my gift, I can't resist a cute baby outfit!!!

The adorable letters to go over Parkers Crib

JEEP stroller, tested and approved by daddy in Babies R' Us :)

Adorable little Monkey footsies

My gorgeous SIL(on the left) and I (on the right)

Really Safeway? Really?

2010-04-08T18:50:00.000-07:00

So it's been a while since this has happened, thankfully, but I come home tonight to a lovely piece of mail from Safeway. Bless their hearts! As if I would have somehow forgotten had they not reminded me that, yes, it would in fact be our little peanuts one year birthday next month had they not sent me THIS in the mail!!!!!

So thank you Safeway. Had it not been for you I may have forgotten the day all together (insert sarcasm)!!!

Ok, enough ranting. On a good note. My DH found out today that he has the weekend off so we are going to go away for a mini vacation. :) Yay, so excited when we actually get to spend time together. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thank you to all my new friends...and an interesting finding!

2010-04-03T09:09:00.000-07:00

I would just like to start off this post by saying a big THANK YOU to all my new friends (followers) it means so much to me that you want to listen to my ramblings about life, love and infertility.

I had an interesting night last night, I am staying the weekend with my parents in my home town while the hubby is gone working graveyards. It's nice to be able to get a couple nights sleep without my mind racing and wondering what every little sound is. Well, my parents were gone for the evening so I decided to head over and visit one of my cousins who I don't get to see very often and catch up on how things have been going in her world. Well, as things usually go with us we were up until 1 a.m. chatting away while her DH snored away on the couch :)

What was my interesting find you might ask? My cousin and I some how got on the conversation of thyroid medications and it made me remember that I had not taken mine yet so I opened my purse pulled out my medication and popped one of those itty bitty little blue pills (no not those blue pills) LOL. My cousin see's me do this and askes if I always take my pills at night and I reply yes. Ever since I was diagnosed about 9 years ago. Why I ask? Well, apparently, you are supposed to take the pills first thing in the morning and at least an hour before any meal. I was shocked why had no one ever told me this. So I look on the side of the bottle and it says. "Take one pill daily, a hour before Breakfast" Oh my lord, how have I not seen that for 9 years :) Come to find out not taking your thyroid medication at the right time can have effects on your fertility. I know this will not be the end all,cure all for our TTC struggles but I'm hoping it is at least one of the little pieces of the big picture.

Happy Egg hunting!!

Hoppity Hop just in time for Easter

2010-04-02T12:49:00.001-07:00

Please send lots of prayers...

2010-03-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

After "11" years of trying my friends Brandy and James welcomed their beautiful baby boy Wyatt James today at 28 weeks gestation. He weighs 2 lbs 5 oz and is 15 in long. They think he will be in the NICU for 10 weeks and is breathing on his own for now. Please send prayers their way that he stays strong and grows big and healthy so they can bring him home soon.

Am I crazy, please tell me I'm not crazy.

2010-03-10T13:04:00.000-08:00

So as mentioned in a previous blog I have been experiencing multiple pregnancy symptoms, sore breasts, fatigue, nausea, constant hunger, etc.... I finally broke down last night and bought a pregnancy test. It of course was negative. What was I thinking! I'm on BCP's and have been for three months. I was hoping and wishing secretly that taking a pill at 5 instead of 6 may have been enough of a miss step to cause me to get pregnant but alas... that is not the case. Stupid BCP side effects!!! Funny how I spent years worried that my BCP pills failed and I was unexpectedly pregnant and now I am secretly hoping they WILL fail and I become unexpectedly and miraculously pregnant before our June TTC date. :) Well, just a little vent. Thank you for listening :)

A little weekend bonding and 2 pregnancy announcments!!!

2010-03-09T13:19:00.000-08:00

Friday ~ I got to go see my friends new baby girl. She is so tiny and prescious. I just love her to pieces. Her name is Brooke Antonette, LOVE IT! While visiting her I also got suprised with the news that yet another one of my friends is pregnant. So happy for her but a little disappointed she didn't tell me herself. I know people are affraid to tell me because of our losses but it still hurts to hear it from someone else. I am so overjoyed for her!

Saturday ~ I went to the NW Womens Show in Seattle with my cousin this weekend. We had a BLAST!!! I had never been to one before but will definitely be going back again next year. We were there to support my cousin who has just started her own business. She sells these great little Kozy Kups for you drinks (see pic above) check them out at http://www.kozykup.com/. We came home with about 10 lbs of free make-up/beauty/health products. My cousin has herself been suffering with infertility and miscarriages so it was nice to spend a day chatting with someone who understands what it's like every time you see a women with a newborn or toddler and how your heart aches for the babies that could have been and the babies that will hopefully be some day.

Sunday ~ I got to spend an amazing day with my DH. First we went to a co-workers son's 1st birthday which was a little uncomfortable as we didn't really know any one there and there was a lady there with a two week old baby who when I asked her if he was a good baby said to me "No he's a Bratt". WTF!! How can a two week old be a brat? And these people get to have children! Well, we made it through the torture of the party and then spent the rest of the day at our local theater pub having a wonderful date with yummy Artichoke dip appetizer a viewing of Alice in Wonderland in 3-D, a lovely dinner (enjoyed while watching the movie) and a trip to the book store. It was perfect. I love spending time with my DH. Came home Sunday night to a wonderful We're Pregnant post on one of the blogs I follow by and amazing girl! I love to hear when fellow bloggies are pregnant after so much struggle. Congratulations!!!!

Side Note:
I'm assuming these are all side effects of my lovely new BCP but I am experiencing all of the symptoms of pregancy and it is PISSING me off because I know it's not possible.
Also, if you could all send your prayers my husbands way, he is interviewing for a new job today. 9-5, M-F weekends off. This would be the first job in our 12 years together that he would have a weekends off day job :)

2010-03-04T18:23:00.000-08:00

Well not really alot going on lately. I am super excited for my SIL's baby shower in April. I will be making the invitations. I'll post a picture once there ready. I have a great idea in mind!! I still can't believe little Parker is almost here. It seems like just yesterday they announced they were pregnant. I have gotten over the initial shock of it all (they are due almot exactly one year to the day as when we would have been welcoming our own little peanut into the world) and am now in full blown excitment mode. I can't wait for another little one in the family. Not alot to report on the TTC front. I am going on month two of my new BCP and thing seem to be going well. Hopefully this is a good sign of things to come :)

Happy Valentines Day!

2010-02-13T12:44:00.000-08:00

With Valentine’s Day right around the corner I thought I would give everyone a brief story of how DH and I came to be "Forever Valentines". DH was born and raised in Arkansas until the third grade at which time his family made the move to Washington State (thank you mom and dad). We ended up having the same third grade teacher and attended the same school together all the way through high school graduation. We also attended the same church and youth group together. Why is this relevant you may ask? Well....we never talked to each other. He had his friends, I had mine. 10 years attending the same school and the same church in a town of just over 2,000 people and a graduating class of just 96 and we never hung out. He went away to college and I stayed home. Three years later he came home for the summer and I got a job working with him at a visitor’s center at Mt. St. Helens (thanks to my friend Kelly who was originally offered the job and turned it down). Three years later he made me the happiest women in the world and became my husband. We have been together for 12 years and married for almost 9. We have suffered two miscarriages and I have been diagnosed with PCOS but we are not letting this get us down. I have known since I was a little girl my purpose in life is to be a wife and mommy.

Side Note:

Today is day one of my Necon BCP sugar pill. Waiting to see if AF arrives soon? Hoping she will and it will be a good sign this is regulating my cycles which will make trying in June/July a success!! Fingers Crossed. I've never been this anxious for HER to arrive. :) To all my SoulCysters and Infertilty girls out there, Keep your chins up. Know you are not alone in your struggle and together we will all get there.

Happy Valentines Day!!!!!

Our lifes will change FOREVER...

2010-02-08T12:36:00.000-08:00

I borrowed this from another post I follow. I thought it was amazing.

Thank you

At the end of this cycle my life with change forever.

Even if it takes more than one cycle we will have our baby(ies) very soon.

I just know it.

I am setting out on a journey for our child that most woman will never experience.

I've prayed for our children unlike alot woman.

I loved my child long before conception and knew them by name long before most woman.

I will know what my child looked like long before they were a child.

My earliest picture of them will not be their 10 week ultrasound, but

Rather when they were still a little embryo.

What an amazing feeling to know that I fought for our children

when other's told me it wouldn't happen.

What an amazing feeling to know our little babies are pure miracles.

What an amazing feeling to know that I loved my child long before I ever saw them.

I prayed for them long before they exsisted.

And I called them by name long before their birth certificate gave them that name.

What an amazing feeling to know that soon what I have cried for, for so long

Will soon by crying for me.

The ache in my heart will soon be a warm little miracle in my arms.

And even though I wouldn't go through all of this if I had a choice,

I know that my child will be the most loved and prayed for child.

God truly has a plan for our babies.

And I know that it's only a matter of time before they are in our arms.

Necon seems to be a success

2010-01-30T14:22:00.000-08:00

Well last night at 6 p.m. was my first Necon b/c pill and this morning woke up to no bleeding and have had no bleeding yet for the day. :) Let's hope the effects keep getting better as the months go on and in June/July we are 50 lbs lighter and blessed with a BFP!!!

Day One Necon 1-35-28

2010-01-29T22:19:00.000-08:00

Well, today was day one on my new b/c. My doctor has put me on Necon 1-35-28. I guess it's supposed to be good for women with PCOS (which I was diagnosed with about two years ago) so I'm hoping it does the job. Today is day 19 of bleeding so I am hoping the effects kick in fast and I stop bleeding soon. I am going to start charting on my next cycle to see if I can figure out a O pattern before we start TTC in June. Had a good talk with mom today and got out some good crying which I think I needed more than I realized. Can't wait to see where these new things take us.

Wait

2010-01-28T23:09:00.001-08:00

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;

Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied,

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...

And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your word.

"My future and all to which I relate

Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?

I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,

Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,

We need but ask, and we shall receive.

And Lord I've been asking; and this is my cry;

I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,

As my Master replied again, "Wait."

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,

And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...

and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.

You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.

You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.

You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair.

You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.

You'd not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love

When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.

You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,

But you'd now know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight.

The depth that' beyond getting just what you ask

From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly feel,

What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.

Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,

But, oh the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see

That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.

And though often My answers seem terribly late,

My most precious answer of all is still...Wait."

Seeing the Rainbow through the storm...

2010-01-28T17:23:00.000-08:00

I heard a quote the other day that fit our situation perfectly.

"If you want the rainbow, you must to put up with the rain"

I believe that we are going through the storm but am confident that their is a rainbow at the end of our journey. I just went to the doctor today for bleeding that has been going on for 18 days now. She thinks my hormones are all out of wack and has put me on a high dose birth control in hopes it will regulate my cycles and my hormones. I have to be on it for 6 months, which actually works perfectly for the NY trip I am taking wiht my mom and sister in June. Hopefully, after I get back I can go off of the BC and start back on my Metformin and hopefully my first round of Clomid. Plus I've heard that women with PCOS tend to get a surge of fertility right after going off of BC so fingers crossed :) I really feel like this is going to be our year for a healthy pregnancy. I know I am meant to be a mommy and know that it will happen in God's time. Thank you everyone for your love and support through these tough times. We couldn't get through this without you <3